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Monstrous Birth

by Don Kongo

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1.
Clare Foster 02:57
Dear, there's been an accident I borrowed you my heart for just a minute Yet it seems that you somehow got stuck in it I'm on the pavement Lost and afraid and Broken and braided and you have to admit, it was a Mad affair to move with all the subtlety of the electric chair I'd hate to have you think that I didn't care But I didn't care And I don't know my own left hand anymore I'm in the zone, but I really only love you when we're On the phone I only ever call when I feel alone, that's my #1 weakness (Can you hear me now?) Dear, yes I can, but I'm not home, as you can glean from the ring of the dialtone You're a burden, just leave me alone 'Cause I need to think And I know that you just want to bone, AH I've got a dossier on you, it says you're nothing but a no-good, pedant, ever-loving son of an absentee mother with a hateful brother and a guilty conscience about it all I wanna love you--but I can't I wanna quit you--but I can't I'd rather hurt you now than forever Maybe someday we can get back together (Hahahahahaha NO) Well I'm down to bone, But I really only love you when we're on the phone, And I only ever call when I feel alone, that's my #1 weakness (Can you hear me now?) Dear, yes I can but I'm not home, as you can glean from the scream of the dialtone You're a burden, just leave me alone Leave me alone In a month, you were out of my system Then I found a brand-new victim Somehow who would treat me better Now I get to forget you forever ('Cause I was so alone) I was so alone (I was so alone) I didn't want to bone (Didn't want to bone) And you, You never-ever-ever picked up the phone And I'm on the phone, but I really only loved you we're on the phone (I only ever loved you we're on the phone) On the phone-- I only ever loved you we're on the phone (And I only ever loved you when we're) On the phone, I only ever loved you when we're on the phone (only ever loved you when we're) On the phone On the phone
2.
Is this your card, dear? You thinkin' what I'm thinkin? But let's don't start, dear--it's much too soon for drinkin' It's only 10 AM, but later in my mind So we can drink, dear--just please, put down the knife Let's be honest, face the facts: This is not some bold romance, It's just lobsters and ants. So hypothetically--again, this isn't real-- But if I leave you, so like, how would you feel? I'd change my name again, maybe to John or Boris And move to California, o-o-off to the Redwood Forest Let's be honest, face the facts: We're just partners in the dance Just like lobsters and ants Though it's awful, it's the truth: This is not some bold romance, It's just lobsters and ants. Around the world, dear, I see a growing notion It's brasher than a star, and larger than an ocean The people all queued up, begging for mass destruction And that's my line, dear; I can provide instruction Let's be honest, face the facts: We're just partners in the dance, Just like lobsters and ants. We're not special, we're the same And we are ALL to blame Just like lobsters and ants Creeping 'cross the world in single-file armies From my point of vantage, everybody scares me Living like crustaceans, creeping on the surface Crowded and we're hungry, searching for a purpose What is your ambition? Your modus operandi? Worms churn us to feces like dinosaurs and Gandhi Still we soldier on, still we march in single-file Praying for redemption; tormented all the while.
3.
Keep my eyes shut, but keep my heart wide open Lost in the dark, but still we just keep hopin' Dear Brenda Lee, you're neither gone nor forgotten Just like the reign of mighty Akhenaten I wanna know--will you show me? Oh, please don't go--we had a date Oh don't you know? I'm lost and lonely Before you go--say I'm your friend Deep in her mansion down in Southern Florida (That's what I really wanted, that's what I really wanted, that's what I really wanted, yeah that's what I really wanted) She's toasting her earnings and the southern border* (That's what she really wanted, that's what she really wanted, that's what she really wanted, is that what she really wanted?) Dear Brenda Lee, we are your sons and daughters But I wouldn't tread into your holy waters So eat your heart out, Brenda Lee My prayers to your family Sorrow in my tender breast I'm sending you and yours my best Oh, I do do do, do, do do-o do do do *I RARELY clarify lyrics, but I want to make it clear: I'm talking about the border where Mexico meets the United States, where a lot of the Southwestern music I weirdly associate with Brenda Lee comes from. I'm talking about a space of cultural meshing. I am not--nor do I tolerate, in any way--the notion of a divisive, totalitarian apparatus that this current excuse for a government seems to define as a border. And if you support ICE or the border in that sense, 1. this probably isn't the album for you, and 2. go fuck yourself heartily, you inhuman monster.
4.
Desperation's not the kind of thing I like to flash around But surely, it's the only thing we have for common ground And I'm the kind of guy who says whatever's on his mind But if you get me drunk, I just unravel and unwind I still dream of the moon--smiling at you--it's not so hopeless! If you dream of the sun, would it come undone? You're just too hopeless I still dream of the moon--smiling at you--it's not so hopeless! If you dream of the sun, would it come undone? You're just too hopeless Junior year I drank away the hours of my days I went to classes and my meetings in a drunken haze So push me up the fucking wall, and beat me if I scream I'm half-convinced I'm living in another person's dream And ain't it lovely to be so damn happy and free Rolling in the meadows of a dour existentialist's wet dream? Make way, table for two--you're just too hopeless Oh darling, shall we dance? You're just too hopeless Ba, ba, ba da-ba-da ba ba! I still dream of the moon, smilin' at you--it's not so hopeless! Why dream of the sun? Would it come undone? It's not so hopeless Ooh-ooh
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Tchaikovsky, lover my, I can taste your embers On my tongue and on my mind Your lover remembers: Cold days and torrid nights Full of lustful motions Since your death I keep my heart Pure of all emotions I sigh--and dream-- I pray--and scream-- For you, my love, I swear-- Oh, I'd die for one more night with you Tchaikovsky, darling my, I can feel your presence Hear your words within my ears Begging for acceptance The songs that you wrote, They spiral in layers Delivered on time And sacred like prayers, now see Your genius of tone Your palate of mystery They serve to remind me How deeply you miss me I sigh--and dream-- I pray--and scream-- For you, my love, I swear-- I'd die I sigh, and dream, I beg, and dream, For you, my love, I swear: oh, I'd die for one more night with you
6.
When there’s lights in the sky, and the moon up on high, oh, I want it, I want it, I do When we’re marching in time, and there’s lives on the line, oh, I want it, I want it, I do But if love is the answer, then what is the question? But if love is the answer, then what is the question? Tip from an actor: if you do things with style People will ask you to stay for a while Although in reality you haven’t got a clue They’ll applaud in the mezzanine, stomp in the aisles, And they’ll quiet your worrisome mind for a while But death is a monologue: you must do it alone When I’m out of my mind, and I’m screaming in time, oh I want it, I want it, I do And when I’m in distress, and I choke in my chest, oh I want it, I want it, I do But if love is the answer, then what is the question? But if love is the answer, then what is the question? In tangible actions, I’m telling the truth But if no one believes me, what good does that do? I’m fine, then I’m not, then I’m fine, so I sit and I stew The cast list is infinite, critics will rave: Let’s hope I can rest once I’m down in my grave At the end of my run, I’ll bow with a smirk and a wave Yes, love is the answer, oh, love is the answer Life is the question, oh, life is the question
7.
Knick Knock 04:17
Make way for subtle bondage! We're marching out the suburbs two-by-two We seek a holy vessel, and if you didn't know this time it's you This time it's you So smile for your picture, Smile wide and make sure not to blink We're gonna take your eyeballs, But just the left one first so you can wink Give us a wink Oh knick-knock on the marching clock, it goes Tick-tick-tick-tick-tick-tick-tick-tick Me oh my, what a nice surprise Fee-fie-fo-fum bing-bang-boom-dumb Oh knick-knock on the marching clock-- Oh knick-knock on the marching clock Now angels tread before you, Try not to let it bore you I'm trying to relate a narrative And sing that hallelujah-- 'cause when we give it to ya, That's the ticket We'll sing all in a chorus, Just like those Greeks before us, It's sure to be a brouhaha of sorts But do be mighty careful 'Cause I'll give you an earful if it hurts It's gonna hurt Oh well I try oh well I try oh well I try oh well I Tried so hard just to make you mine, but I Just don't know, I just don't know with you So give it to me, sock it to me--come on! Give it to me, sock it to me, bring it to me, drop it to me Just don't know, no I just don't know with you And I believe in a god, but I believe in you And I believe in a god, but I believe in you And I believe in a god, but I believe in you And I believe in a god, but I believe in you Now babe, if I release you Can you promise not to scream? 'Cause honey, if they catch us, They'll put an end to all this lifelong dream My lifelong dream I'll take you far away, I'll take you far away, I'll take you so very far from here And that might stop the ringing, this never-ending singing in my ear It's all I hear (And it goes Oh knick-knock on the marching clock, it goes Tick-tick-tick-tick-tick-tick-tick-tick Me oh my, what a nice surprise Fee-fie-fo-fum bing-bang-boom-dumb Oh knick-knock on the marching-- Oh knick-knock on the marching clock etc.) Oh well I try oh well I try oh well I try oh well I Tried so hard just to make you mine, but I Just don't know, I just don't know with you So give it to me, sock it to me--come on! Give it to me, sock it to me, bring it to me, drop it to me Just don't know, no I just don't know with you And I believe in a god, but I believe in you And I believe in a god, but I believe in you And I believe in a god, but I believe in you And I believe in a god, but I believe in you
8.
He rolls up with Dino (1), who's just back from rehab There's Johnny Encino (2), "Mr. Big Dick" himself There's Tommy (3) and Bingo (4), the twins--I adore them And Slinky's a twink (5)--they're with Big O He enters the club like he's tripping on passion He's such a good boy--awaiting his spankings And he catches your eye with a gleam and a whimper You'd better watch out--said you'd better watch out 'Cause he didn't just come for love And he may not be a doctor But he's looking for a chance at lust Won't someone call the doctor? And see, he didn't just come for love And he may not be a doctor But he's looking for a chance at lust Won't someone call the doctor? And see, I didn't just come for love He is my protector Big O is the one And he's such a good director But he didn't just come for love And he may not be a doctor But the boy is so insane He's quite my favorite actor The first time I met him, the ninth of November He beckoned me softly; I said he was crazy We danced in slow motion The others were watching And Tommy and Bingo said my ass was next I sat on the sofa and he sat upon me He bucked like a tiger, then I flipped him over And two hours later--picture my surprise!-- We were lying there laughing, wiping cum from our eyes But I don't just cum for love-- I also cum for practice And see, I'm thinking 'bout turning up And letting Big O have it And see, I didn't just come for love But I really, really want it So don that rubber glove And then just let me have it We're partners in the dance Animals and rabbits I fuck him 'til he's had enough Then beg him to let me have it And see, I won't say I'm in love But I'm back in my old habits We're partners in the dance Animals and rabbits
9.
I'm Evil 04:01
eeYOOOOO! I'm evil-- I mean, not all of the time, but I'm evil-- Though I'm biting my tongue, I'm still evil-- The things I've let slip, And the sting of my wit, I chomp at the bit, but it's Easy-- To think that you've won when you're losing-- To act like you're loving while bruising-- It's hard to pretend that I'm simple-- But simple to feign that I'm hard eeYOOOO! It's tasteless-- The comments I make are so tasteless; Though I'm kidding, I talk like I'm wasted; Like my words are a game, So I speak all the same, Like I've never known shame, and it's Crazy-- The way I go off is just crazy-- I've been laughing for nearly an hour-- But I'm willing to say it's not funny; Not anymore, anymore, anymore. I'm lying--I'm just being polite, but I'm lying I'm so busy just living and dying And dying to stop this pretending 'Cause our love was conceived with an ending But we never considered the mending Sorry-- If ever I've caused you to worry Though apologies just seem to bore me Ask the asshole in white I'm sick of the story, of letting men gore me It's easy-- Well, I want to pretend life is easy I want to pretend that I'm simple I want to live on a Hallmark card But everything is so damn hard *sax solo* Darling! I promise, I'm truly an angel I'm someone that you can rely on I'm a friend and your bosom companion I'm a shoulder for someone to cry on I'm a nightmare, I know that I'm garbage I'm careening and lost, and I'm hopeless I'm a scorpion and I'm a weasel: Ask my brother: he thinks that I'm evil eeYOOOO!
10.
Every evening at 8:30 PM They open the dance floor--I'm unhappy to see them In opulent falsehoods, pairs cross the floor But I'm making motions, I sneak towards the door I am pounding, I am pounding on the, I am pounding on the, I am pounding on the door (sim.) It's just a small venue in San Miguel Nepantla Where no one fears God, but we all fear the chancla At 9:27, my beau's hand is waiting I'm desperate and there's no hope of escaping So dance for the innocent, dance for the mad, And when we look back--these were the best times we've ever had But I am pounding, I am pounding on the, I am pounding on the, I am pounding on the door (sim.) --Rood eht no gnidnuop ma I , Eht no gnidnuop ma I , Eht no gnidnuop ma I , Gnidnuop ma I If you look at my dance card, it says for the rondo My partner's a captain from south Anor Londo And I am the swine that you're casting your pearls for It's nearly 4:30, they're closing the dance floor Dance for the innocent; dance for the mad, And when we look back--these were the best times we've ever had
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You come to me talking real fast Just like you were a skipping record And I should've been much more upfront about my track record What's more, I never thought that I could play the home-wrecker Guess I truly thought that you could be my Michael Brecker Well me for you and you for me, And that's the way it was And it was great--until we no longer felt the buzz We stacked our hearts so high Our love, a double-decker I want a love of steel But you can't be my Bekaert I wanted you to be Somebody that you're not I wanted to be Somebody that I'm not You come to me talking real fast, just like you were a skipping record You said that I had lied: you were my fact-checker Not barring my omission of how my past is checkered You can't be my Michael Brecker I thought I was safe with you You were my hallowed ground But I can only hide my true feelings when you're around Darling please understand, my altered track record The only one I've loved is just a boy named Michael Brecker Oh--you can't be my Michael Brecker Darling when you say you hate me It can really irritate me All this crying and berating me--it's really irritating Never meant to shut you out I guess I should just shut my mouth I never meant to seem like lying Darling, shut it--please quit crying
12.
This one’s for all my boys in back For those who never found relief These lonely riders mount the night And meet the sunrise on their steeds This one's for those whose names unknown Perplex the annals of my mind Their hearts live on in strange affairs Their tender smiles lost to time Now they’re stars, past the drunken bars, and a cannibal consumption This song’s for those who lost the war Whose names have failed the test of time They gave it everything they had And yet they never toed the line They rode through lonely, lonely nights And yet they never were alone They buried sorrow in their friends And then they’d wend their way back home Now they’re stars, past those ugly bars, and a cannibal consumption This one’s for all my boys in back For those who bore the brunt of pain Contorted faces, yet they smile On cloudless nights they made it rain Last time, for all those boys in back Who haunt these channels in my mind They played at love for all to see And then they left it all behind Have you seen? Pictures on the screen, and a cannibal consumption (DTMF tones: It took them all into its fold The young the old the kind the bold And off they went unto the breach Beyond the pale of illness' reach Now they rest among the stars Beyond the bruisers in the bars Repose dear friends in rest complete Until the day when we shall meet)
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O dear God, it's the age of Cain and Abel! Bitch you bet, I'm willing and I'm able Pass the test, 'cause it's really just a fable Scarlet A, but on a field of sable God Above, am I worthy or unwilling? Is it wrong, the hours that I'm killing? Or in me, is Thy holy bidding vested? Watch your back, they say I can't be tested You get stoned just like you were named Rosetta Cheetohs' dust and playing Bayonetta Grand Theft Auto, you go buy a Baretta Was your life not made for something better? O dear God, can I play at right and holy? Bear the slings of those who do not know me I would rather be purged by holy fire Than become a hypocrite and liar O, dear God in this unholy age, Had You all the wisdom of a sage Would You put mankind under the blade? O, dear God hear the angels in the outfield Crying out because they Hear my words, but they cannot know how I feel-- I'm willing, but my flesh is weak, I know that You shall destroy me Still I beg, that you Let me die, if it means You can't control me, I wish You were a friend I wish that a single person knew You So do You Want us all to give in to falser preachers? Nasty creatures The GOP is the reason I abhor You They adore You In the name of all that's right and money (Why don't you find that funny?) But I know that that doesn't quite concern You Even though they Mock Your name, in their selfishness they spurn You I'd rather Be the kind of person who says, "I'm not quite religious, I'm more spiritual" so my hands stay clean, and All that I've been--that I was--that I am Teach me to love, to be kind, as a man Teach me to love, to be kind, as a man Teach me to love, to be kind, as a man (In this age of such medieval suspicions, is there no contrition?)
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Sweet mother, cruel daughter O stern and absent father Blind priestess, con artist, Godmother of Injustice Do you love them? All your children? Would you do anything for them? God of Hunger, hateful prankster Selfish but endearing gangster Narcissistic and a braggart Wealthy patrons bind and gag her Blissful ditz and, dark avenger Drugs are her sweet surrender She’s addicted to entertainment So much there she can’t contain it Why do you only hate the things that I do? Go take a good look at yourself Awful timing, careful liar Laughing as the flames grow higher Double-D cup, and a crow’s beak, To be sure, she has a mean streak She is blind to, and unkind to Those we never turn our mind to We consume her, cry in chorus, And in turn, she does consume us O save this wanton child Before she harms herself The souls of all these angels Held o’er the flames of Hell O save this savage matron Before she slays her young O quench these bitter fires Or have they just begun? Fucking Nazis, rapist actors, Bodies hanging in the rafters Cops who murder, bloody slaughter Cast aside Black sons and daughters Is God laughing? There to pray to? Oh, I wouldn’t even try to Hate the leader, fucking tyrant Child who outgrew his bonnet O Paramour of Treachery, And Titan of Disdain O mistress of a shackled folk Enjoy your bloodstained fame! America, America, God’s pity falls on thee The ignorant and spiteful rule From sea to shining sea
15.
In every age, In every song, You'll hear my words, And sing along, Though near or far, Wheree'er you are, I'll be right there: Inside your heart. Beyond the veil, Beyond all time, Beyond the tears, Your lips on mine, Our breath entwined, Our hearts in twain, Until the day We meet again.
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When first we started our affair I tried to show how deeply I would care Told you my secrets one by one Tried to involve you in my fun I didn’t wait to call you mine I spent the fall turning down other guys I felt like we would never end Wanted to call you my boyfriend Well, I was looking in the mirror, thinking of the future, Seeing you as someone, something I should nurture Held you in my arms and offered you my bedroom Read you plays and stories, lighting up the gloom, I was Faithful in affection, loyal through depression, Patient through your anger, calm when you’re pedantic So desperate to please you, searching for approval Quietly afraid you’d plot for my removal I didn’t mean to make you cry I didn’t mean to tell a lie, I never said that I would stay You always knew I’d go away But still I’d hoped to call you mine I didn’t mean to make you cry I didn’t mean to break your heart, I didn’t mean to tear our love I didn’t mean to kill a dove But you never kissed the way I like There just was something not quite right I always felt something was off Like we were singing out of key Like we were gears in a machine That ground and gnashed whenever they would meet You didn’t hear when I said “No” Maybe you couldn’t let it go You were selfish in affection, brash and lost and angry, Rude about my weight, and desperate to upstage me Rough when I was hurt, consumed by your depression Closed-minded and foolish, teeming with aggression Stilted and incapable of being tender Broken by your past, and stunted by your gender Deaf to my protesting, dumb—why were we fighting? ... Why were we fighting? I didn’t mean to make you cry Maybe I meant to hurt you so, maybe I meant to cause you pain Maybe I meant to start again Maybe I meant to break your heart Maybe I meant to wound you so damn much that you couldn’t ever let me go— And I just wanted you to know—I didn’t mean to make you cry
17.
Father of mine Where are you now? Could You forgive me All I have done? I am so sorry My siblings and I, The orphans of love Sweat on my brow Blood in the dirt Shit I have done Things I have said Lost and afraid But never alone My lovers and I The ones you have lost We come before You, hat in hand Approaching to Your promised land I beg of You, please understand If You have made us with Your hand Forgive--forgive--forgive Were You in love? Do You know how that feels? Every scent every touch Every kiss on your hand? Every single hello Even worse, the goodbyes In the end you're alone So am I a glitch? Just Your fucking mistake? A pleasant reminder That there's no fucking plan Did You hope I'd resist? Did You think I would change? Did You hope I'd atone? I yearn to bear the mighty sword To writhe within Your underworld To suffer for who I have been If like they say it is a sin I'd forgive--forgive--forgive
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We met in the throes of a contest I wasn't the type to refuse you You shining with enthusiasm Me tripping on words, I abused you I wanted to sniff out your interests Plus, I'm just a sucker for flannel I never met someone like you in my whole life-- Until I met your wife We put on a play of compassion Drunk calls and song recommendations It's nothing but two ships in passing Two Murrays lost in translation Although you've got one you rely on Though you've hung your wish on another star Although you're not with a man I always know who you are <3 In a foreign harbor I'll wave my handkerchief high in the air I'll bless the currents That bear you off to your newest affair Off to Korea Or off to Saudi or Tokyo When shall I see you? Or shall I just have to let you go? But if we're parted-- But if I never should see you again I'll know it's fated And still I'll cherish you as an old friend (It lives in you) Come back to me Come back into my life Be near me And yes--bring your wife I need you I want to see you You're perfect You're so worth it It lives in you It lives in you It lives in you
19.
Boss Battle 02:54
Somebody tell me-- What am I supposed to do? Somebody tell me-- What do you want me to do? In every office, they're quaking in fear Despicable tyrants, drawing so near In cubicle silence, we bear their demands, But they quake and they tremble--just look at their hands Man, I think I want to tell you that I'm leaving you dry, this chaos is a sign Don't pretend you're surprised, 'cause there's no compromise With a boss like you, how can anyone survive? I wish This office would burn to the ground And I swear to God, if I could, I would bury you alive Somebody help me-- Just 'cause I'm new to the job-- Set expectations-- Oh, for the love of God I'm nobody's milquetoast, I'm in full command But for two fucking seconds, try to understand When I offer solutions, you scoff and get mean You're the tiniest man-child that I've ever seen (Fight! Fight! Fight! Fight! Fight! Fight! Fight! Fight!...) I don't mean to be a bother, but I Couldn't help but notice you screaming that's Not the best way to get her attention She's been in sales nearly a decade but If you say so, surely you know best, but You look like such an asshole right now And also forever, I've dreamt of killing you Every single night I dream of killing you, of Tearing out your organs and feeding you them And watching as the earth opens up and swallows this Entire place, and every person here And your screaming grimace as you meet your demise! (Die! Die! Die! Die! Die! Die! Die! Die!)
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Fête Affair 03:34
There is blood on the floor There's blood on the dance floor No need to pretend because I've seen your game Yeah, you've done this before Of course you've done this before But still whoever you hunt It seems you still want more And in all of the games that you play Have you let anyone get away Or does everyone end up as prey? Is it a crime? Why so suspicious? For some to live--some have to die Is that a crime? That's just fictitious! You bloody hand--my inner thigh I wanna die Now they’re all hypnotized You’ve got your eyes on the prize But you’re only alive when you get compromised You’ve got your target surprised As far as I have surmised The game gives out the best highs as life is leaving their eyes You want to be the Albert Fish of death You want to be the Kanye West of sex You're too randy It comes in handy Am I afraid? Well, yes I am And in all of the games that you play Have you let anyone get away? Or does everyone end up as prey? Is it a crime? Why so suspicious? For some to live, some have to die Is that a crime? That’s just fictitious! A bloody hand—an inner thigh Yeah I been thinkin’ that it’s time to talk ‘Cause you're a demon on the floor but I just want to talk And if you test my patience I’ve been known to walk No, I’m not the normal client that you tend to stalk Is it a crime? Why so suspicious? For some to live, some have to die Is that a crime? That’s just fictitious! But baby please—I don’t wanna die Carve me into pieces—why me worry? Fade to black in a burning fury Blood on the dance floor, vision: blurry Last words I’ll ever hear are “Baby, I’m so sorry” Yes it’s a crime Not so fictitious I want to live God, I wanna live With any other guy, it’s the same old story Mount me on a hook and scream, “I’m so sorry”
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Ah! Pain It always begins with the pain It's a feeling I cannot explain All this pain Bu no matter how I try to scream, nothing ever comes out Of my mouth And whenever you're near me I'm desperate to drown it all out You're the whale and your spite's in your spout And I'm Ahab, I'm thrashing about But the irony is lost on you 'Cause you've never thought of anything 'Cause you think you've thought of everything News flash: you haven't But the irony is lost on you All the jokes at your expense Subtle digs and social subterfuge And you end up alone Wait--I'm thinking of a four-letter word Starts with "H", it's a noun and a verb One you've heard After all of this time, I'm still searching for something I'd ask for your tenderness, ask for affection I'd ask, if I thought you had something worth asking for You're a tonsil, a waste, and a bore Thank God that you walked out the door Get frenetic, it's time to get frenetic! Give it a shot like you're fucking diabetic I live on vengeance, it's like I'm cybernetic I would explain, but you'd never fucking get it Get frenetic, it's time to get frenetic! Cut the cord, yeah, I just wanna forget it When you're around, I just need a medic I pray to Christ that your damage ain't genetic Get frenetic, get frenetic! (times a billion) You don't even know what I'm thinking When I scream "I feel like I'm sinking" You don't even know what I'm feeling When I tell ya, I'll send ya reeling You don't even know what I'm thinking When I scream "I feel like I'm sinking" You don't even know what I'm feeling When I tell ya, I'll send ya reeling You don't even know what I'm thinking When I scream "I feel like I'm sinking" You don't even know what I'm feeling When I tell ya, I'll send ya reeling I feel like I'm sinking I feel like I'm sinking But the irony is lost on you
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Howard Hawks 03:12
Reagan and Nixon were crafting a plan Like a puppeteer Nancy yanked on her man She pulled on his strings 'til he said, "It's a sham!" Howard Hawks has done it again! Marilyn said she liked how Lauren smiled Ms. Bacall was in labor; all of the while In desperate glances I don't understand, said, "Howard Hawks has done it again!" Some sort of code that I don't understand Mother of God, I've done it again! Tell me: what did you think? Would I really just leave you alone for to sink? Though I'm so far away in a foreign land We commune in the shadows; here, take my hand I'm nearer than ever, I promised you I'd always come around, And I always come around; Yeah, I always come around I always come around Twentieth Century: all aboard! The end is so nigh, if you yank on my pull-cord My voicebox will utter satanic commands Mother of God, I've done it again! Obscure connotations of salad-bowl fame And J.E.E.P. was the cat, yeah, J.E.E.P. was his name We know without saying, we love and commend Howard Hawks has done it again! I'm nearer than ever, I promised you I'd always come around, And I always come around; Yeah, I always come around But still there is hope In the machine A mic in my hands A lens up your sleeve Cigars in the dark A gun for a queen A knife in my lap "Oh, I didn't KNOW that!" Send help, this is a code and I'm asking and begging, I'll call on a Wednesday with no prior warning because all my handlers insist it's urgent; I'll ask you to repeat a series of digits, the digits are: "17-2-47-A" That's "17-2-47-A" (17-2-47-A) So memorize well if ye not be afeared, I command ye by every hair in my beard! Pardon the speech of an insolent weirdo (You get like that by reading too much Shakespeare) I'll make like John Wayne and I'll worship your wife and I'll finally ask to be seen as a man-- And then we'll get brunch at that place in Japan.
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Sentimental tenors sang a zinger for a winner he’s a singer so we gave it a go In the autumn I’m a bottom in the summer I’m a top but in the winter, oh I don’t even know Yet he and I made love within la primavera; estaba acosta’o en una escalera We were on a factory line, or in a diamond mine, or we worked in the halls of a friend of mine But I caught them in the act, so I sent him to the back, of the line, in the courtroom in my mind And in these passions' throes he says he loves me kindly And I forgive him so, ‘cause I just love so blindly Like the stars, ever bright, in the wrong, in the right, In these fits, mad delights, we just burn through our nights Yet we rage on, rage on against the day! You have a problem with who I am? Motherfucker tell me who I am, like I’m telling you: You don’t even know what I'm thinking when I scream, "I feel like I'm sinking!" Come upon these sands, my bosom for a coward (How may I place your call today?) And if you loved me so, you’d buy me fucking flowers (Who is God can I get His number? If he's fake, that’s really a bummer!) You have a problem with how I feel? You don’t even get my ordeal, like I'm telling you: You don’t even know how I'm feeling When I tell ya, I'll send ya reeling! Come upon these sands, my bosom for a liar Like the stars, ever bright, in the wrong, in the right, In these fits, in our fights, oh I know that I’m broken, but broken is alright with me Is that fine? Because baby, I know that we’re praying for something But lately you’re making me feel like you’re making me feel like you’re making feel you’ve put one over on me—am I free? (Oh my God, dear, I am on fire—oh God, dear, I am on fire!) Yeah, I know that you’re broken, I’ve said that I’m sorry If doctors won’t fix it, I wouldn’t worry But baby I'm begging you, come for the pardon And stay for the omens, and toast to the hopeless The table I’ve set is set on my destruction One day, we’ll lay waste to the land of the waking And all will be broken, when broken is alright with me.
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Open My Eyes 03:21
Oh my! Oh dear! It's under calculation How I have changed--and how much I have lost In every account, your name is on the dotted line But it's been several months, and it seems like things are working Each day at nine, you have to leave for work Let the sun burn my curtains and pierce my ever-sleeping eyes That's just fine-- I want to open my eyes and see you I want to open my eyes and see you Each day when sprites kiss the grass with morning dew I want to open my eyes and see you Oh my! Oh dear! You know, it's really funny-- When we first met, I worried you'd be plain, Worried you were a model with nothing really on your mind (Thank God I was wrong, but anyways...) So disregarding bone structure, all polemics aside You've got something I'm after--a lantern deep inside And at night when I stir and I turn in the half-gray light-- At my side I want to open my eyes and see you I want to open my eyes and see you When fairies bless the night in shades of blue I want to open my eyes and see you 哎,我每天醒的时候, Ah, each day when I wake up 我想当时看到你 I want to see you right away 当你在我的旁边, When you're by my side 睡眠是我的天敌 Sleep is my mortal enemy 月光下一起睡觉, Sleeping together in the moonlight 一起做同一个梦 Dreaming the same dream 一起亲着、做着爱, Kissing and making love 高兴得会使我疯 So happy I'll go mad 当你给我打电话, And when you call me 心跳得快要爆炸 My heart beats like it's going to explode 我一看到你的脸, As soon as I see your face 幸运使得我惊讶 My good fortune shocks me 虽然现在这么远, Though we may be so far away right now 但我还是会耐心 Still, I'll be patient 每天早上我想要, Every morning I want 一醒来就看到你 As soon as I wake up, to see you Open my eyes and see you I want to open my eyes and see you When my alarm clock betrays my sleeping view I want to open my eyes and see you Open my eyes I want to open my eyes and see you
25.
Was it everything you dreamed of? Are you happy that you left? Or is there something you wanted you shouldn't have tried to forget? Is the bed so wide and empty? Like the vacuum of space? Is there a moment you miss that you find that you cannot replace? Do you ever feel you're sinking? Like you're unable to move? Though I may not be beside you I wholeheartedly approve I just thought that you should know Ever tried and true Though you may not even miss me I still think of you Was it everything you dreamed of? Yeah, did you get to live the dream? Or do you clutch at your pillow at night as you try not to scream? Was it everything you wanted? Are you satisfied at last? Is there some penitent bone in your body that wants to come back? Is there anybody out there? Are we totally alone? Though I may not be beside you I may yet pick up the phone I just thought that I should tell you Because I'm ever tried and true Though I'm way off in the sidelines I still think of you Though I recollect quite fondly I am glad to see you gone Because the hours you wasted with me, they were bad, they were wrong If there's anyone who's worth it Who it's worth for me to lose I will admit it, okay? It was worth it for me to lose you. Though I may not be beside you Life will always find a way Though it's awful that you left, I'm glad you didn't stay There's no Happy Ever After There's no "Guess this is farewell..." There's just this hole in my heart and a hand on a dueling bell It's just something best forgotten That we never shall replace It's just the mem'ry of how, when we kissed, there was warmth in your face Though I sometimes feel I'm sinking Like I'm unable to move I just pretend you are beside me That you thoroughly approve And I just thought that you should know Because I'm ever tried and true Though it's just a faded memory I still think of you

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Don Kongo's eighth album, written across four years and three continents. (This album is explicit; please listen responsibly.)
This might best be processed as a double-album, with song 15 as the intermission between them.

In every age,
In every song,
You'll hear my words,
And sing along,
Though near or far,
Wheree'er you are,
I'll be right there:
Inside your heart.

Beyond the veil,
Beyond all time,
Beyond the tears,
Your lips on mine,
Our hands entwined,
Our breath in twain,
Until the day
We meet again.

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released March 14, 2020

Album art cover photo taken by Lionel Zeng.
Written and generated with FL Studio 12; mastered with Audacity; recorded in a basement.

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Don Kongo Willowbrook, Illinois

Freak-Pop | Video Game Music | Don't really know what to call it. Music brought lovingly to life.

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